No More, Time Is Almost Up.

Everybody seems to be celebrating Father's Day except me. My family doesn't celebrate these types of events. In fact, my family doesn't celebrate any of these special days at all.


Been compromising a lot about my physique these days. I sacrifice my morning cardio, gym, post-gym cardio and diet for thing. Insignificant things I just realized. I gotta stop. I gotta get back up to the I-don't-care-even-if-it-rains-I-gotta-do-what-I-need-to-do attitude.

This time I'm resuming for real. No sacrifices, no compromising, just pure intense focus training and guai boy doing my project works and getting participation marks. I'll find the discipline not to concentrate on other aspects of life.


I enjoy my life, work and exercise with diet. I shouldn't let anything else get in my lifestyle.


To be honest, I feel that I'm actually quite self-centered person but I too acknowledge that I disguise it so well that people can't see it through.


FOR EXAMPLE: On Tues I have CCA at 530. So.. I have a project work on Tues in school at 8am. I tried to change it to 12pm with the all-so-nice excuse of "hey you guys need sleep right? dont worry I got that covered" when I'm actually "HEY GUYS, I'M HAVING CCA AT 530 SO LETS HAVE IT AT 12 WHERE IT WILL BE SUPER CONVENIENT FOR ME AND I HOPE YOU GUYS AGREE STUPID"
It failed though, meeting still arranged at 8.

But hey, that's just an example of my selfishness. Its sometime quite subtle and it takes a really proficient individual to spot out these events of me-myself-I and remind me that this is one of my greatest flaws I should improve on.

Been doing LLM group assignment 2 the past 4 hours inclusive of dinner, distractions, personal needs and more. I guess I have time tomorrow so that's why I wasn't focus. That's another bad part of me.

I'm usually more focused and my brain would max out its capabilities when time constraint is present. Without pressure, I'm more relaxed and slack. I don't know how to improve on that. Its like I'll be winning when I'm losing. If only I could work my way towards that I'm able to fully utilize my brain's resources without having a catalyst, like time, to place pressure where it pushes out my potential.

“You see things; and you say, 'Why?' But I dream things that never were; and I say, 'Why not?'”

-George Bernard Shaw