Short-term Goals in Mind

- No stuttering
- Be more confident
- Be more direct and firm
- Less/No procrastination
- Put more effort into tutorials and stop being lazy

- Be more 'sensitive'

Well, above are the short-term goals I aim to achieve ASAP. While the one in bold is something I would like to talk about. When I say be more 'sensitive', I don't mean that I'm not sensitive. Actually, I'm quite the contemporary new-age guy in this modern world and I'm a pretty sensitive person. That also lets me understand how others feel about certain stuff/words. So I am able to sense emotions/reactions quite well.

HOWEVER, I need to be more 'sensitive' is towards the subject of caring more. For example, (I'll just conjure up a random and non-realistic scene)

Unimportant Ugly girl: Am I ugly and fat?
Me: Yes.

Of course by saying yes, its so obvious that the other party will get hurt etc. However, the point is that I don't really care much about others at many point of times. Or at least I don't show that I care. Though inside me I know that it could even drive the person to even suicide, The problem is whether I care or don't care, most of the times I would be nonchalant (in real life attitude and postures) about it to act cool as if nothing happened. Maybe this is something called.. Pride. It always feels that I'll be the ultimate loser if I showed that I care, or lower my pride for something else. Although I know that its not the case but it always feels like that. I'm afraid to initiate, to be nice, to say 'thank you' and especially 'sorry'. I need to lower this pride, it has been with me for quite a dam long while already.

 I want to go against my feelings.