This is Bad

Another gym day today!

Did project since 10am, I went to dabao my own lunch at 12pm while the rest didn't want to eat yet. #firstworldproblems #troublesofbeingfit Because I have to eat regularly (3h intervals).

At about 2pm, went to gym with YQ while Sherhong came after her IL at 2.45pm.

(too lazy to type the minor details)

Ran after gym at the track in a clockwise manner so others who were running there too wouldn't be able to compete with us (we were slow jogging) and also it prevents us from comparing ourselves with them.

Today's mood was really... bad. Even when I got home, I didn't feel like playing Soulcraft (A game I've been playing for the past 2 days almost 8h each day). Didn't feel like playing any of my other usual games either. Didn't feel like doing work/tutorials/prepare for presentation. It a feeling that can hardly be described, but the best word to fit it is 'emo'.

I don't understand how I'm able to feel this way. I really don't think there's anything troubling me but I feel... blue.. a complicated type of depressed feeling from an unknown source. I'd figure that if I find the source, I can cure this problem but.. I really don't know where all this is coming from. School stress? Friendship stress? I just feel unhappy and just wanna ignore the whole world.

If I can see my own inner thoughts (like what Zhi Qing from Beyond, 9pm Chn 8), I probably would be a guy carrying a large sack of burdens (Like Hanxiang from that show too) but it wouldn't be white roses like the show, it'll be so many different things like, texts, paper work, tutorials, lectures, fitness etc etc.

I also wonder if this 'emo' thingy I'm feeling has to do with my physical level of energy. I ran in the morning today, gymmed in the afternoon, and ran again after gym. I think I'm really totally drained out but is there a correlation between these two?

Well, I'd do anything to smile again. You can probably imagine me with a grump face typing all these.