99% Guilt, 1% Sympathy

I feel pathetic. I think I'm addicted to gaming.

I can't seem to do work. Really unable to concentrate. I was once so disciplined, so determined to be the best, so motivated to flash past the rest. What happened to me? Every single day also must play dota. This is one addiction I need to stop.

And if gaming's not the distraction, laziness takes over. Be it doing project or even self-studying, I'm so freaking lazy to even do it. I'll like waste the time going facebook  or twitter, then can't find anything else to kill time then play dota. I could use a personal study coach right now.

23 days to the end of semester tests. I really need to buck up. I've been slacking throughout lectures. I used to self-study the topic during lectures but I just.. I became your average student. I want to get back to the exceptional me but its too late, next week's the last tutorial week and with so many factors pulling me down, I can't seem to fortify my the As I used to get. I'll probably drop to a C if I don't act fast.

The problem is very simple. My mind knows the problem and also has the solution. But my body refuses to cooperate and I don't think my heart is involved in this conflict. How do I save myself?

Procrastination is also a huge factor complimenting the distractions that lies in front of me. Each day I tell myself "Aiya tmr then do la" or "Next week also can". The cycle continues everyday and I'm disappointed with myself.

My physical progression has also been slowed. Now its just at a slow, constant and relaxed rate of improvement.

Short-term goals now:

Study least 30min-1hr EVERYDAY, 23 days left

Gym 3 times a week(Wed, Fri, Sun)

Run least 5 times a week(I used to run 10 times a week)

Cheat meal only once a fortnight

Be a better friend

Screw procrastination, I'm starting today. I can start by studying 30minutes!

"There are a million ways to lose a work day, but not even a single way to get one back." 
~Tom DeMarco and Timothy Lister