Then IJ... *Epic Music* DUM DUM DUM
Was given the task of analyzing and whatnots to the survey and have to pass up by Tues. The teacher just went through an example, talk alot of nonsense and just let us on our own to do. Okay I'm fine with that somehow. So we had about 30minutes to discuss as it was 1130. Okay so we kinda discussed. Then, the FAT BITCH pissed me off. Okay here's how it happened:
First there was no demographic(age,gender etc) results in our survey, so the FatBitch was worried for the conclusion part. So I suggested we fake results. She say ok la can fake results for the age. Only me and her were fine with it then I asked her to do it. She said she didn't want to so I told her okay la, since you don't wanna do that, I shall fake it and you all shall do the rest. So okay I fake already then we also feel guilty for lying. So we(the rest of us) changed our minds, just be honest and give conclusions according to our survey without any demographic background.(Here it comes...)
She was like..
"Oh we can't do a solid conclusion without any demographic results".
And I was
"Yeah unless you wanna redo this which we know we all don't want to so I believe with our smart brains we can achieve something out of this"
She: But we cannot get any conclusion
me: Yes we can, are you LOOKING DOWN on us?
She: But we can't........(it was more than this few words, I'm just putting this in a nice way)
So I don't care le. We assigned our roles to do and I know she's giving the buaysong attitude already. BUT I DONT CARE<<< Nonchalant and I'm #winning
So I picked up my bag and walked towards the exit. While walking she shouted.." I WANNA SCOLD YOU YOU KNOW"
So I turned around, gave her the cool dude and you-think-I-care-anymore face and countered "Scold me from BEHIND!" Then I exited the door walkin' away cool, feeeeeeeeeling SHIOK
Okay actually it wasn't her fault that I was kinda pissed off. The main factor was time. It was 12 already and they were FREAKING dragging time. I need my lunch at 12 if I wanted to gym at 2-3. Also cannot pangseh XQ who got big table and so many seats for us. Actually yeah those are the 2 main reasons why I had time constraints.
Irony is, I'm not working out today. Feeling too lazy to and not in the mood. Besides I needed to do some reflecting on my own.
I realized my attitude towards business/work is very different. I have the bossy attitude which could be bad or could be good I don't know. For example: After lunch Andy, Rachel and I were practicing for our SQTR-ITR project presentation. I'm like always "PAUSE, eh andy you need to do this this this this, eh this slide can you shorten it and have a mental script blah blah". Its really direct, straightforward and like speaking from a superior rank than a peer position. I should use a gentle voice and like.. "Hey Andy, I find it a little out of standard when you consistently look back at the slides when you present. Is it possible for you to have more eye contact PLEASE?"
Yeah I realize alot of magic words are missing from my vocabulary. I'm not a guy who says or accept "Please, Thank You, Good Morning, Excuse Me, Pardon Me"
I was bad-mannered from a child. I didn't care what people think. My parents always had to consistently remind me to greet my relatives if not I won't greet them at all.
Which all links back to my nonchalant attitude.
BRAIN VS HEART
My Brain tells me this is the way to go, keep up the nonchalant attitude if I want optimal benefits and results.
My heart tells me that this is selfish and though I may get the best of what I wanted but to the extend that it will somehow cause harm or hurt to others is unacceptable and I should change my plans.
I do know and remember my ultimate goal in poly is to get really really good results so I can meet ma homies again in University. But as Wei Jie, I will always strive for a challenge. Therefore I'm changing to another form of attitude.
My aim is to get the attitudes of the following:
- Optimism
- Confident
- Interested
- Independent
- Jealous(in a cute, good way)
- Courteous
- Cooperative
- Considerate
- Inferior(in a humble manner)
- Happy
- Frank
- Respectful
- Authoritative
- Sincere
- Persistent(More of never-give-up than annoying)
- Honest
- Sympathetic
- Realistic
- Faithful
- Flexible
- Decisive
- Trusting
- Thoughtful
- Determined
- Loving
- Hostile(towards unwanted people)
- Modest
- Reliable
- Tolerant
- Humble
- Cautious
- Sarcastic(only to imbeciles to prove my dissatisfaction)
- Helping
- Hard Working I WILL WORK TOWARDS MY GOAL!
Attitudes are contagious. Are yours worth catching?
~Dennis and Wendy Mannering
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